I continue to process it all...

Now the time has come to write...at least a bit.  I think the writing will be in spurts as I continue to process it all!  Everyone has had a bit to take in!

Of course I have a million questions but they aren't questions that can be answered in simple conversation.  The questions not only cover factual, specific things, they cover things about ideas, thoughts and feelings!  I have been so blessed and happy that the feelings have been those of love and acceptance.  I took a leap of faith, but I have great faith!

The last few days my husband has come home with "what now"? But he has been supportive, loving and respectful. His biggest concern is me.  He knows this has been a long journey and one that I have vacillated on at times and of course, for Dave, he, I'm sure has all of these questions about "what next"?

I have loved seeing the few pictures that have been shared so far.  Just seeing people who look like me...it gives a visceral sense of belonging that cannot be explained.  And the stories......

I know...more to come later and I can't wait!  Hopefully at some point soon, it will be in person!

WOW!! The Universe has opened up!

There is no possible absolute answer that can be given to anyone involved in a myriad of different birth circumstances.  The best that one can hope for is humanity, grace, understanding and humility.  

At some point, when things become more clear, get sorted out, the story will be able to be told.   I already know most of the answers, I just need to know how to write the story.  I really thought I was ready to sit for several hours and write tonight...but I guess not.  But I look forward to putting my handwriting (yes, it is terrible) to paper and tell my story.

Meanwhile....I need to re-name my blog!   I'm definitely out of my 40's and God willing, menopause will be in the past!   So if you are looking for a cute, high IQ egg conveyor...sorry....SOL!